3X5
--subconsciously--
I'm writing to you to catch you up on places I've been
You held this letter probably got excited,
But there's nothing else inside it
Didn't have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world with both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it
When I'm in the mood
To lose my way
With words
Today skies are painted colours of a cowboy's cliche
And strange how clouds that look like mountains
In the sky are next to mountains anyway...
You should have seen that sunrise
With your own eyes
It brought me back to life
You'll be with me next time I go outside
No more 3X5's
- John Mayer

--consciously--
I was scared. I sat on the chair and my mind energetically rolled into pancake batter, started stretching in seven different directions at once. Do your essay! Can't do my essay! Don't want to do my essay! Blog! Do it NOW or you won't have another chance! Stay back on Monday! Stay back on Wednesday! (The essay is due on Wednesday!) Make a suggestion! Write it down! Write EVERYTHING down! There's a mistake there! And there! You're not trying! Did you know your skirt is extremely short? (YES, I KNEW, IT WAS FULLY MY INTENTION TO LOOK LIKE A MINISKIRTED GUILTY PERSON.) Answer this and this and YOU HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING FOR YOUR COMMON TEST YET! DID YOU KNOW IT'S COMING VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SOON???? Do you have any prayer requests?? I have to be creative by tomorrow and here I am pulling all my hair out...
Do I want to go for yoga therapy? What do you think? I just want to sit down. I am sitting down.

--I will--
Do my tasks. And enjoy them. I know I need to pull myself together. Mel, it was very timely.
There's a thick smokey wind inching in from the window, and makes me think darkness has a smell. Darkness is the absence of light and the abundance of smell. There are violent, stress-inducing sounds coming from the TV. It's Finding Nemo.